as the world turns

In TO I watched "Shall We Dance" with Jen. In it Susan Sarandon's character expresses this thought about marriages and just love in general.

"We need a witness to our lives. There's a billion people on the planet... I mean, what does any one life really mean? But in a marriage, you're promising to care about everything. The good things, the bad things, the terrible things, the mundane things... all of it, all of the time, every day. You're saying 'Your life will not go unnoticed because I will notice it. Your life will not go un-witnessed because I will be your witness"

We all need witnesses in our lives, to make us feel that what we're doing is worthwhile and has an impact even if it is only noticed by one alone. It gives meaning to what you do even if it's something small and seemingly insignificant. Life is a lonely journey by oneself. We're not meant to be alone, to live our lives unnoticed. I want a witness in my life. Someone to look eye to eye with and yet with our eyes forward in search of the same truth. I want to know that no matter what, there is someone in my life that I can depend wholly on.

I don't think it's a matter of feeling lonely being a singleton. It's more than that. It's this want, this need to share everything I see and experience and know that they want to know everything I see and experience.